The 7 Stages of Crack Cocaine Use

0 to 7 Stages of Crack Cocaine Use and Withdrawal Pattern

0) Currently using: Auditory hallucinations, hypertensive, hyper vigilant. During usage a person may think they hear sirens, cars pulling up outside, music, people talking, etc. Some people will experience tactile hallucinations such as skin crawling or seeing bugs on their skin. They will be extremely alert to the point of paranoia — perhaps suspicious of any movement around the area where they are using. It is common to hide out in the area where use is occurring and refuse to answer the door.

1) Panic stage: 1-3 hours after last use. During this phase money for more is the prime concern. In this phase a person may look for something around their house to sell or pawn or may consider where they may beg, borrow or steal something to sell for cocaine. Looking for lint on the rug hoping something has fallen is common at this point. In this acute withdrawal period, people have been known to try to rob crowded public places (mall stores, convenience stores, fast food restaurants) to obtain goods to sell or money for more crack. The withdrawal is so intense and craving so high that the person has little ability to think or reason logically.

2) Crash Stage: 3-24 hours after last use. Depression; remorse (suicidal); brain is in desperate need of rest but the chemicals (serotonin) necessary for sleep have been depleted and it is difficult, at first, to sleep. In this phase one wonders why they spent all their paycheck, used funds that did not belong to them, pawned valuable household items for less than actual value, stole from persons they truly care about, etc. Often, under the influence of cocaine-induced depression, one makes promises to never do it again in this phase and believes it. Highest risk for suicide is during this period.

3) Honeymoon Stage: 1-5 days after last use. Characterized by feeling very good. The craving is not noticeable or is easily manageable during this phase. The drug effects seem to be wearing off and one is starting to regain confidence in their ability to handle the addiction. During this phase it is common to hear a person say, “I don’t even think about it, I’m not going to have any problem with it. I do not even want it anymore.” A delusive way of thinking that ignores their past cycles and paves the way for the next binge. The chemical messengers of the brain (serotonin/dopamine) necessary to enjoy crack are still depleted and behind this lack of interest in crack. This is a dangerous stage as it is easy to think there is not a problem and therefore, why worry about it? People let down their guard during this phase and commonly use defense mechanisms, e.g., rationalizing and minimizing, to convince themselves this time they are cured and so have no need of further support or treatment. There is a high risk for people in treatment to leave during this phase as they no longer feel, or are aware of, the physical and emotional affects of the original crisis.

4) Return of Craving: 5-14 days after last use. Tremendous upsurge of acute drug hunger, depression, anger. The body has produced enough serotonin/dopamine for the person to want to use more cocaine but not enough to affect stability of mood and emotions. During this phase one may experience vivid dreams, fantasies, and acute drug hunger. Thoughts may cycle around using until a person feels like giving in to the obsession to use. Defense mechanisms (rationalization, intellectualization, denial, minimizing) begin to make a strong comeback after being knocked down by the original crisis.

5) Emotional Augmentation: 14-28 days start – up to 1-2 years. Over-response to the normal stress and events of everyday life. At the top of the mood swing one is unusually happy and at the bottom one is unusually sad. The state of making mountains out of molehills. This is related to biochemical responses induced by strong emotions that stimulate areas where mood and mind altering drugs act on the brain. The body is now seriously undertaking the repairs of areas damaged by drug use and is replacing important chemicals needed to regulate mood and emotions. As a result, one is slightly off balance chemically without being consciously aware of it. There there is a strong need for accurate feedback on one’s behavior from an objective support group. (Recommend AA or NA or another type recovery support group.) This cannot be stressed too highly for long term success in recovery. Also, low impact exercise – walking, jogging, bicycling, low impact aerobics – and a well-balanced diet will shorten this phase and reduce the severity of the symptoms. Irritability, depression, anxiety, mood swings, memory loss, difficulty concentrating, short attention span, nightmares, insomnia, fatigue, and headaches are some of the normal recovery symptoms of the emotional augmentation stage.

6) Covert Cravings: 28-35 days. Secrets and bad judgments characterize this phase. Craving is not as strong on a regular basis but one may have periodic strong cravings and not want to admit it for various reasons. Thinking it is a sign of weakness, poor moral character, that they are not working a good program, that they simply should not be having cravings. Generally, the cravings are of a low level, e.g. euphoric recall (glorifying war stories), vivid dreams that trigger cravings upon awakening, or just general mild drug hunger. Without someone to talk with concerning these normal protracted withdrawal symptoms, they can evolve into high level cravings, e.g. acute drug hunger, drug seeking behavior, obsession and on to compulsion. Again the need for a support system is strongly recommended.

7) Cue Conditioning: 35 days upward. Cue conditioning – referred to as triggers – could be money, anger, disappointment, music, a film, or extreme joy. Anything strongly associated with using could cue/trigger a craving. The strength of these cue cravings will diminish in time but continue on for years although becoming few and far between. They can catch a person off guard and evolve into higher level cravings. Again, a long term support plan for sobriety AA/NA or recovery support group is recommended to alleviate these natural manifestations.

It is a normal part of recovery to have strong cravings due to acute withdrawal 3-7 days and then continued cravings at a lower level well into protracted withdrawal 6 months-2 years. Time and severity of protracted withdrawal depend upon type, amount, and frequency of drug used. Again, a program of good nutrition and low impact exercise can alleviate these normal recovery symptoms.

Please note that behavioral symptoms: compulsion, obsession, loss of control over time, place, amount used and continued use despite adverse consequences are secondary symptoms of the disease process. With continued treatment of the disease with abstinence and a good support system, these behavioral symptoms will diminish to normal discussions over time.

The above information was provided to a friend of a friend of mine in 2000 while he was in detox for crack cocaine addiction, and she recently emailed me a copy when she learned I was going to write about crack and homelessness. Thanks, friend. :)

>> See also, “What You Need To Hear About Crack Cocaine”

919 comments on “The 7 Stages of Crack Cocaine Use

  1. al September 2, 2014 2:59 pm

    Hi A.P. And Shaz I hope you are ok. Please get in touch. Ok A.P. To answer your question and it is a good one where you MUST tread carefully as you have been doing. My advice is CHECK it ALL out. One thing I live by is honesty, and whoever said..Honesty is the best policy was right. It works for me and I never have to back paddle or strain to remember what I said to anyone cause it’s. Always the truth…which is easy to keep in check(this is for you addicts that lie, loe, lie…as it’s a pain in the ass for you, especially to try to remember…so guess what? You end up getting duped a liar and all goes to crap..just a bit here to apply to this sight).

    Back to your dilema A.P.
    Lets start with the ugly first.
    1.) I have been there with mixed signals and it is CRAZY as you say.
    2.) As a professional therapist…that’s the worst! Because isn’t a therapists job to help you see things more clearly?
    3.) You seem to hold her in high esteem and feel she has helped you a lot to open up, etc. Personally I have liked some of my men friends so much that although I wanted to take it to the next level…I decided against it so as not to jeopardize an entire lifetime as a friend in my life as lovers tend to move on, but friends can be in your life forever. And if she is so good at her job…you wouldn’t want her to risk losing her profession either. th

    Guess there was the bad in there too.

    The good now.
    1.) I can’t speak of the age difference because I always tend to attract younger men and the age difference huge. They still love and respect me but wish I hadn’t taken it to the one I was friends with for 3 yrs. Went out for 7yrs. And now hardly in touch…where had we just remained friends, am sure, positive actually that we would be more in touch and would have been here by now to visit me. Ask yourself if you are prepared to lose her forever. Most couples don’t last as long as Sharon Bs relationship, but then she is super special and so are you for sharing this dilema A.P.

    2.) The fact that you seem ready for another person in your life which is about sharing, is great and amazing.

    Now I have a question for you. My man who is an addict as you know loves me more than anyone in his life and I am the only person he could open up to. The one person he could tells about the sexual abuse as a child, about his addiction, etc.And I some times wonder id he really lo es ME ir what I hace done to help him. Si you see where I am going with this. You appreciate her and I can understand why. Do you have other things in common? Sports, music, hobbies? Be honest with yourself. If you don’t know by now and she hasn’t invited you to meet her family and friends then I would say to stay clear from her. Some times we make more of things then they actually are…so be honest with yourself to make sure you aren’t imagining it.

    So take more time to read things as you have been doing…but careful too as I have seen people who have obsessive compulsive behavior characteristics which many addicts seem to have where I wonder which came first…these characteristics or the drugs that may have caused them?

    And lastly, if you still believe it’s flirting…THEN approach with…Hmmm, you help me get my thoughts clear right? Well don’t take this wrong…just getting mixed messages.What? Well with the special attn you give me, etc and see where it goes.

    My ex still in his mind considers me his wife! I made it quite clear we are friends and I do love him but we shall see where this goes after he completes 7 to 12Months of treatment rehab and I am not having sex with him to stand clear on this bit he still doesnt get it.

    So check it all out, and ck yourself too whether it id the compassion and understanding that she gives you ir more that you love. I just love you as a friend to want to make sure you dont get hurt. Just ck it out, and be honest in all if you ask her.

    Hugs and all the Best!
    Al ( I am a woman, for those new reading this)

  2. Sharon B September 2, 2014 3:49 pm

    OK AP Here we go…..A lot of times we all become fixated on someone who is kind to us and we probably read more into it than there is. I have done, Al has done it , we all have done it, so no shame there. I have found with my husband that he is very OCD and once he tries something he becomes crazy about it. For example, when he met me, OMG, it was like he fell in love instantly and could not leave me alone. I was flattered at first but now know that is part of his personality and I do believe his drug use “helped” make him this way. For the last 6 months he has been fixated with remote control helicopters. Spends all day taking them apart, putting back together and flying them. The 6 months before that he was into woodworking, making beautiful mangers for Christmas. The six months before that he was a reading fanatic and spent all day and night reading books. Its like he grabs on to something and then after 6 months gets tired or bored with it. My point being, you are grabbing on to something you like. She sound compassionate and empathetic and smart and caring and you have grabbed on to her. Now here is the deal….I, like AL, believe in total honesty. However, I am concerned that if you say something to her about your feelings, she may pooh pooh them as transference or she may decide you have to see another therapist cuz you have crossed the line. I think for right now, you should take a wait and see attitude. Let her make the moves if any are going to be made and in the meantime, watch for any signs that maybe she really has developed feelings for you. I think if she has she will have to release you as a patient to be totally ethical. And one last thing…27 years is huge age difference. i lived for 15 years with a man 20 years my junior and toward the end, the age difference really became an obstacle. He was a sweet kind man and I love him to this day, but age differences do become important later when the excitement has waned. I met my husband 4 months after splitting from my young man and so it was a good thing that we split. BTW my husband is three years younger..not so bad. lol Keep us posted and hey AP…regardless of what you decide to do, I am always here for ya! Love and peace to all

  3. Alex September 4, 2014 12:47 pm

    My girlfriend of 4 months has been smoking crack for 1 month an everything I do to help fails, so before we got together I knew she was a ex drug addict and I knew she had been clean for about 2 years she had her own apartment, car, and was a single mother. The job that I met her at had fired her a month after we got together and she slowly started to lose everything, she borrowed money from a relative to pay her rent but instead smoked it, car got repossessed, she managed to borrow some more money an pay the rent but the power turned off so she sent the kids to live with there previous foster parents who are very nice people they even lent her one of there old cars, and that’s where it really got bad. She knows all of the crack spots in our city knows all the dealers an smokers some are related some are friends, she is supposed to be looking for a job instead she goes and smokes and when she’s gone she is gone for 3 to 5 days at a time then she’ll come find me knowing I love her stays the night an the following day with me talking about getting her shit together and cleaning up, then coming up with an excuse to leave I don’t see her for days again, she has been doing this the past two months. One time I gave her my car and phone while I was at work, me trusting her after all the good talk was left with no car or phone 20 miles away from home thank god for one of my co workers or I would have walked home in the rain. I arrived at the crack house to find my car there and phone dead and her excuse was “I took a hit and got stuck”. Last night I fell asleep to wake up alone and no car keys 1 hour before I had to be at work, I knew exactly where she was and when I got there she said “I was going to be back before u woke up”. Every minute of every day she is on my mind I fell in love with the sober her know I’m stuck with the addicted her and she told me last night that I “signed up for this” I didn’t. And every person that she affiliates with is always saying that she is getting her stuff through sex, and I know that shit is not free, and she gets mad at me cuz I don’t trust her, but I gotta here how freaky my girl is after a hit and some liquor the feeling makes me sick to my stomach and angry to the point of fighting her “friends” I can’t sleep at night knowing someone is fucking my girl…… Its driving me crazy its the worst feeling in the world, and she won’t admit it I think it’s cuz she is ashamed. I’m mad at myself that I can’t do nothing to stop it Iv tried, and I can’t let go of her…. I need some advice because I feel I’m going to lose it, we had plans for a baby, we were going to get a place together and go to school, now it’s like smoking is her only priority, I forgot to mention that she got a DWI and is now on probation and has community service hours, it’s been a week no hours an she missed a ua, I’m not perfect either I drink and smoke weed, a lot more now do to the situation I’m in but know it doesn’t even help it gives me anxiety attacks cuz I’m so stuck and don’t know what to do plz help me…

  4. Sharon B September 4, 2014 2:36 pm

    My first instinct is to tell you run, run now. If you have read any of the previous posts from those of us who love addicts, you would not even be asking the questions. It is a tough life my friend. My husband was sober for almost ten years, then went back to crack. He is 60 years old. Do not think this is just a young persons curse. And the thouught of her having a child? No no and no. And believe me, I know how you feel. But you cannot love them into sobriety. She has already stolen your time she has finished with you enabling her you might lose everything. The only thing on herr mind is how to get the drugs. You said it yourself that she is probably sleeping with men to get it. The disease, the humility of knowing she is doing that, the absolute mindset that she has that she will do anything to get it….and YOU DID NOT SIGN UP FOR THIS as she said. You my friend are under no obligation to stay be her side. In fact that is how they think…only of themselves while using. Manipulation, lies, secrets..welcome to her world. Get are only enabling her. You cannot save her, she has to do it. BTW..I took my husband back after months of therapy and treatment with the stipulation that one fall and I was done. I mean it…over two years sober now and I pray every day to God to keep him that way. But I will not ruin my health and credit and well being for someone bent on destroying themselves. Neither should you…love and peace

  5. A.P. September 5, 2014 5:45 pm

    Sharon and Al,
    O.K. ladies I think I’ve got it.
    After 3 days of quiet reflection along with reading and re-reading your responses. I have reached some “eye-opening” conclusions. Before I share that with you. I want you to know that I did get a response from Michele(for those who may not know, Michele is the creator of this website). She informed me that she had been in the hospital having surgery. So I am sure you all will join me in wishing her a speedy recovery. She even asked for my forgiveness for her delayed response!! When its me that should be asking for her forgiveness for assuming that nothing else could possibly be more important than responding to me!!!

    Which is a perfect lead in to my response to you both.

    First thing I have to say is YOU BOTH HIT IT OUT OF THE PARK!!
    that was some wise counsel indeed. I knew I came to the right sources. Or better yet I “was led” to the right sources. Because I believe everyone in my life now is there for a reason. Even if I sometimes get the reason twisted.

    What solidified it was the fact that you both mentioned OCD.(which is ironically the one thing my therapist and I have not discussed). If you have ever watched the t.v. show Monk. Then you have seen me at home with the furniture. I just cant leave things in one place! I mean up and down over and over all thru the house. Everything has to be not one millimeter out of place. Small wonder I live alone. lol !!!

    Yes, you are both so right. Sometimes we see exactly what we want to see. Thank you ladies for YOUR honesty. It was just what the doctor ordered.

    Your juice cards are now full with me !!!!!!!!!!

  6. Sharon B September 5, 2014 6:55 pm

    Alex this is for you..I responded yesterday but it appears that there was a glitch and it never posted. Perhaps a day respisal will make my response a little less harsh. If you knew what hell you are stepping into you would turn and head for the hills. It does not matter that you love her, she will continue on this destructive past until she is ready to stop, not when you want her to stop. Leave now..she has already taken your car without permission…that’s stealing. She will lie ,cheat and steal to get her crack. And gues what Alex..she is full of crap when she says this is what you signed up for. did not sign up for a crack smoking, lying cheating woman who would sell herself for drugs. And to bring a child into this..oh please God no no..bad enough she does have the other kids, but to think of having another. Go on line Alex, look at babies born addicted to crack. if that does not scare you, then you have no heart and are as selfish as she is..selfish, manipulative, lying, cheating….now that I have laid into you, I want to tell you that you are just like the rest of us who love addicts…a full heart and lots of compassion. What that gets you is another kick in the face from the addict…it means nothing to them while they are using. My husband was sober for almost 10 years..then a relaspe…I have given him and only one chance…he has been clean for over two years. But one slip and it is done. I will not let him ruin my life, my credit, my home. Alex he is 60 years old…his health is ruined from the twenty years of drug use before I even met him. He had been clean like I said for a long time when I met him and I have been married for almost three years. He started using again when I married guy huh? I caught him right away and he left for aa few months getting therapy and counseling and I decided everyone derserves one chance. I gave it to him, and he is living right. But his health is so bad…bad teeth, bad back, memory prroblems..old man at 60. Your girl is heading in same direction…please a little tough love and do not enable her….Peace and love

  7. Sharon B September 5, 2014 7:03 pm

    AP….well I am honored to be in same good company as AL is giving advice!!!! Glad to have helped and you sound like such a good guy. I am so happy your life is on the right course and someday the right one will be there and you will know it instantly. Thanks for the info about Michelle and speedy recovery to you Michelle. Did you guys read the convo with Alex? I now feel I may have been a little too hard on him, but Lord II do not want him thinking love will fix everything. We all know it will not. And it really scared me when he said they wanted a baby. Enough screwed up kids in this world without adding another. Ap stay the course, so proud of you. AL, you too..You are one tough woman with a huge heart and I admire you..SHAZ!!!!!!!!!!!What the heck are you? Please a quick note just to know you are OK Peace and Love to all.

  8. A.P. September 5, 2014 9:01 pm

    Somehow your first comment to Alex got stuck in the Aug.28th section. I thought that was weird also. But there it is. And no, I personally don’t think that you were too hard. Which is exactly why I felt no need to weigh in.

  9. Ron September 8, 2014 12:14 am

    Alex, the woman you fell in love with is gone. This is a totally different person that you are dealing with as you well know by now. Be thankful that you are not married to her or have children. My father was a functioning heroine addict (ie; held a job and a family) from the time he was 17 to when he was finally free of all addictions at 62. Lies, stealing , more lies, arrest,evictions,crack dens,alcohol,cocaine,homelssness goes on and on. You cannot help her until she wants to stop ..and from your comments it seems that she is just getting started. I know you love her but you will go down the drain with her. I am not going to say it but you know what you need to do to save yourself. and when you do it DO NOT leave a forwarding address or your NEW phone number. Some people make poor choices in life. Its sad but sometimes we are helpless to do anything about it. All the best to you

  10. al September 8, 2014 1:58 am

    First off, well wishes in every respect for Michelle. God knows we will survive another day without you worrying about this site. Please take care of yourself, you certainly deserve it and more!

    Ron, I don´t know who you are …but you and Sharon B. could not have said it any better with regards to Alex and his crack addict girlfriend. Alex if you are reading this…I have had a crack addict boyfriend (and I am a woman) for 3 and a half years. It is just as Sharon B. says…lies, cheating, stealing and so much more…emotional pain, spiritual pain and even in my case physical pain (been threatened with a knife, and even punched in the face…this man who loves me …did not stop using them either). He is in rehab now but the signs are still all there and the habits they learn like stealing and lying die very hard, if ever!

    I too agree, get out while you can or you will lose everything and I did. Am still trying to get back on my feet and it has been a struggle …even with him in rehab. I have lost all my savings almost, a motorcycle and my dignity. I never, ever thought I would FALL for a drug addict, but they could walk the RED CARPET and WIN THE ACADEMY AWARDS with the BS acts they have you believing. PLEASE don´t fall for it like I did! Even if you know she loves you, like my man does me. Because as Sharon B. said and it is so true….they do not care about you are anyone else but ME ME ME because they will use anything they have in their power to make you believe what ever they need to get the next hit, purchase or drug induced state of mind…and get this through your head…AND YOU WON¨T MATTER! NO ONE WILL MATTER, it is all about getting more crack! Do you really want the mother of your children to not care about them either? Yes, if she is selling her body…she is selling her soul. And anyone that gets in the way…well, I just don´t even want to go there.

    So best of luck in your decision but RUN, RUN, RUN, is what I was told on here and I didn´t listen. Hope you are smarter then me…love, and heart and all aside….listen to the reality we are sharing with you. The rehab my ex bf is in…has told me that out of maybe 40 men…2 might stop using. But they did not tell me of those 2…what the percentage is of not relapsing again. So seriously? The odds are not in our favor for loving an addict. However, I do believe in miracles and now my must address one of those…and again best of luck!

    A. P. you are a wise man. You have made GREAT decisions against all odds! I am amazed and you ARE one of those miracles. Monk huh? Well I sure would like some furniture rearranging! ;-) You have beat a lot of odds. But you ask for, and take advice from trusting people. You thus, make fewer mistakes in the long run doing so! I too am honored to be included with the sound advice that Sharon B. always gives and from the heart…so deep it hurts…us both really. But you are moving forward with your life and are an example for us all for a road filled with wonder and appreciation for a better life which you are obviously leading after stopping the use of crack. I have never heard of anyone so down and out pull them self up so well as you have and like I said …against all odds. I admire you greatly and appreciate that you appreciate us taking the time to reflect on your reflections. Like Sharon B. said…someone will get the great man you are…just by being your self…Monk and all! :-) I wish I could be able to so readily take the advice of others as you have after 3 days of analyzing it. Quite impressive as I was waiting and checking to see a response from you and am glad it has worked out for you. Better then driving yourself crazy like Alex and some of the rest of us who love addicts have done. Smart man A.P.

    And you too Alex for coming on here and sharing what you have surely painfully are trying to get a grip of and how to go forward. There is no forward though if an addict has no intention of stopping and that is the bottom line. And THEY must do it themselves.

    I too am concerned about Shaz. I hope you are alright Doll. You have always checked in with us before. This is unnerving for some of us…so if you are reading this which you always have…you know we would love to hear from you! If not, I fear the worst…and people die from this drug people. God forbid this were to ever happen to Shaz…but she ALWAYS checked in with us at some stage! And don´t think it can only happen to the addict…she is the spouse of an addict and many of us who love addicts have almost seen our lives end. So please keep this in mind too Alex….not to mention the STD´s you could get which can kill you too! Well enough ranting….just hope to hear from Shaz, Michael, Paul E. and all the others who were regular buds of ours on here. Just like to know how you are all doing is all. Best to everyone, I mean it wholeheartedly. Do your best each and every day is what you can do.


  11. Shaz September 10, 2014 5:21 am

    Hey plp I’m back,only just got bk on net!but I’m ere now!readin throu the posts feels so sad,I’m a crackeads wife,how felt like a crackead myself,crack takes plp life’s& damage behind repair,us the loved ones suffer so much,I lost who I woz&still am lost,I’ve been on ma arse 4 god knows ow long,since June up until August,think my man had a fling,but can’t prove it,ova now I’m sure,but still I won’t stop searching 4 clues,another way crack got me,now my man has changed so much again,his like wen we got 1st married,I know e ain’t done crack 4 time now fingers crossed,that’s the good I suppose plus puttin on weight afta goin down to seven stone,this just a quick post as been catching up wid older post,but I’ll post everyday!as there quite few new plp on ere got to giv advice to so watch this space,Sharon al ap missed u all!&luv to others in ere,keep the faith;) xxxxxxxxxdxxxxdx

  12. Sharon B September 12, 2014 7:48 am

    SHAZ!!!!!!!!! Good lord girl, I have missed you. I am so happy to see you back. Not too much going on herre. Some people drifting in and out when they need a little help, but we know we sure as heck can give advice but we ourselves do not always take it. Glad to hear you are putting on a little weight. I got about 30 pounds I could give you! One thing my hub has not done is have a fling, but to be honest, there are times I wish he would come home and tell e he has. Almost like I coud say,,,good you are her problem now. Sad huh? His health is still so bad and I am not sure what he could even offer to another woman, if you get my drift. I am going on vaca in a few weeks with him back to my hometown halfway across the country. I am looking forward to it cuz I really need a break from work. It is rather funny after years of this BS we reach a point of almost non caring. Like every tear we have has been shed, every ounce of caring has been burned out. Now the most dominant feeling I have for him is pity. Crack kills everything. Ah weel, another day in the life…peace and love to all and Shaz, you brighten up my day

  13. Shaz September 12, 2014 5:28 pm

    Sharon know wot u mean gal,my daughter made me chose ma grandson or ma husband&hi chose that dickead truth e makes me feel stronger sorry 2 say it it. B. my win u c I’ll av I’m xxxxsharon luv ya I cud nt do wot ur doin or is it me 2 cum xxxccc

  14. A.P. September 12, 2014 11:50 pm


  15. Shaz September 15, 2014 10:37 pm

    Sharon I love u Bbz,told my old man bout u ur battles so on said all I’m gonna b left wid is a sick man his kids r getting older but will find out 1 day they luv me& him so much it’s unreal,can’t understand y his stop using now,y cudnt e do this wen on ma arse?michelle ope u on the mend gal ap wots wow lol xxxx2 everyone. Special x to my m8 Ali xxxx

  16. A.P September 15, 2014 10:46 pm

    Hey Shaz,
    Are you asking what does wow mean or why did I say it??

  17. Michele ( September 16, 2014 11:25 am

    Thanks for the well-wishes, everyone. I am healing well! :)

  18. Shaz September 18, 2014 10:42 pm

    Goin bk on sum of these posts. Catchin up shud. I say, fuck I hate crack&how it destroys I hate readin the positions it puts plp, Dennis ma heart goes out to you,but u gotta do summit Bbz,don’t take this the wrong way but ur mam knows now which is good but does she know wot it can turn u in2 deep down Bbz? Guessing ur mams old?i love a crack ead&its took my health took my we’ll being my weight, I’ve been bullied big time threatened,I’ve been made to feel the not normal one,even thought of suicide few times,mental hey!thats cuz of ow crack got me,Bbz u want ur mam to feel like that?u av to b strong plz don’t use ur mam cuz she wants to help u,Alex my darlin ur birds in 2 deep know u luv her but she’s on self destruct,think out u Hun,she cudnt come ov it 4 her kids y 4 her man,it takes ur soul& don’t giv a fuck bout luv1s it will take ova u that u live day by day u will lk around&want a normal life I wud’nt wish this on my worst enemy,me I’m only just regaining my. Health my husband been clean 4 a while now but do I trust him noooooo,&thats his fault,waitin 4 one more fuck up&im outa ere,not. Of this site thou lol,read the posts Bbz,Ali ope ur fine,my life mirrors urs a lot ow many chances we giv em?sharon my m8 u r so strong u make me laff get out wid the gals get a bit of fun u av supported ur man throu his addiction look ow e is now but e as fingers crossed beat it,ap u make me laff ur worker ummmmm lol,Bbz u av got sum lovely qualities stay clean&bet ur meet sum1 nice,love u all I ope I av not upset anyone cuz don’t mean to,yeah ap ow come u put wow on post?chin up everyone&lets try&fight together xxxxx

  19. A.P. September 19, 2014 1:23 am

    Thanks Shaz,
    Its always good to know that I have “real champs” in my corner pulling for me! That really, really helps. I feel such a unique closeness to you, Al and Sharon. Ha, and think about this, we could all be in a lift together some day and never even know it!!!

    Which is why when I read Sharon’s last post, I was left speechless. I wanted to say “hell if its that bad, why wait for him to have a fling. Lets you and me have at it !!!!


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