A few years ago, I had a painful, end-of-the-spiritual-rope, disappointed, disillusioned, despairing, ministry-burnout experience.Â It was lonely and painful.Â And in the midst of it, I cried out to God and begged, “I just want to serve people.Â That’s all I want.Â I just want to go scrub toilets.Â I want to be a servant.”
God heard that prayer.Â And He knew that one of the issues that I was struggling with in the midst of my pain was pride.Â And that I knew it.Â And that deep in my soul, I longed to be like Jesus.Â Humble.Â A servant.Â And if that meant walking away from everything else that I had been doing in ministry and going and scrubbing toilets somewhere, then that’s what I wanted to do.
Ultimately, God didn’t have me scrub toilets right then.Â Other than the ones in my house.Â But He did continue to teach me and discipline me and heal me and restore me and expand the ministry path that He called me to.
On Sunday morning, I saw a message on the HIVE’s listserv about the bathrooms needing to be cleaned.Â So in the afternoon, I went and cleaned them.Â As I knelt down and scrubbed the first toilet, I thought about that prayer, several years before, and I smiled.Â And thanked God for answering it.Â I scrubbed those toilets for Jesus.Â And the sinks and floors, too. It was awesome.
Thank you, LORD, for letting me love and serve people in real and practical ways.Â I want to be like You…